As I mentioned in the last post, I was out of town for my pop’s birthday and it was wonderful to see all of my family. Being so far from everyone makes it a little hard for me, but I couldn’t miss this birthday. Now this isn’t going to be too long of a post, and this is why: I’m tired. Burnout is real, and it’s ugly. The past two weeks have made me feel like an emotional wreck! Normally it wouldn’t be much of a problem if it was like a movie I was watching that had a sad scene in it that make me shed a few tears or reading something inspirational online…this ‘thing’ had me crying every. single. day. For anything. It just seemed like any little thing could push me over the edge and I had it when I left. So far I had made it to almost 40 days straight of coding. Breaking that streak wasn’t something I was going to let happen, but I did let it happen. I needed to. Sometimes you just need a break and my brain was literally telling me that I need to step away from the screens and take a break. Mental health is no joke. I could barely sleep the past couple weeks because I’d be freaking out about nonsense really: not doing well in school, worrying about my family, all the crazy ideas that I have for my life. I thought journaling would help me to get it down on paper and out of my mind, and it does help, but I need to do other things to. I think I’m pushing myself too hard when it comes to school and I need to stop because whenever I don’t meet a goal or accomplish anything it makes me feel like a failure, and that’s not healthy. *Note to self*: take it easy. A little bit every day will get you further then trying to do too much and burning out. I will take another day to relax then really jump into it again. Even today, I could only manage two hours before the migraine came in. Anyway, that’s it for today. Also, i’m rethinking whether or not writing posts everyday is ideal for me, so I’ll either stick with it or go with writing one every other day.